September 4, 2010

Home Sick.

Not too much has been going on here in Hannover. The weather  has been so unpredictable. A decent handful of times I have gone out into an open blue and sunny sky to play fetch with Brutus and in less than 5 minutes grey storm clouds roll in and we just make it to the door before huge raindrops come splashing down to the ground. Today was a surprising and refreshing exception. The sun was shining, and I spent a majority of the day walking around the city with two of the girls. It was wonderful to get out of the house with some females. Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with the boys, but I was due for some quality girl time for sure!!

One advantage of living in the hockey fishbowl is that with every new city there is a group of girls who completely understand your situation. And no, of course we aren't all going to get along - you can't expect that from any group of females - but who else knows better and can relate to the trials and tribulations of relocating, frequent adjustments, constant game plans, an unwritten lists of "do"s and "don't"s,  the ever-present reality that our guys can be fired, benched or injured at any time, the daily extremes of winning and losing, constant fan and media scrutiny, or how annoying it is to simply be recognized and referred to as "Mrs. Future Fox" better than other hockey wives?

Trust me when I say that I am not complaining about my life. Far from it, I feel so blessed - but this adjustment has been very difficult for me. I think maybe year after year it becomes harder and harder to become established and then reestablished; to make great girlfriends and form a "family" and then start all over again from square one a few months later. These people do become our family - we make and share important milestones and memories, care about one another, have our Christmas and Easter dinners together while secretly yearning to be "home", and then learn to do it all over again with a whole new group of individuals a few months later.

I admit I am a little sentimental tonight because I am a bit "home"sick. Trying to stay positive, I know that this experience is making me a much stronger and more independent person. I am surrounded by amazing people both near and far, and no matter what city, state or different country we are in, my heart is happy knowing that my family is just a plane ride away and that together with TJ is the best place to be.

Time to say my nightly prayer (an old horoscope if you can believe it!) and head off to sleep. Gute Nacht!

"Home isn't just a physical place or location. It's a state of mind, and one that you can take with you. Remember that when worries about your place in the world or your family spring into your mind. Certain things about them, that is, the most important things, remain with you no matter what may change outwardly. So don't panic even if it seems like everything is changing. The most important stuff stays the same."
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  1. I do not think you are complaining. I think you are being honest. I could not do what you do.I am a very guarded person when it comes to the people in my life that I care for. You "share" TJ with hockey and all that it entails. You do it with tact and a level of class I have never experienced before. I am happy you are my friend.Great job with the blog.

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  2. Trish, I am so lucky to have met you and the Josiegirl. The both of you are true friends and that is very hard to find, not only in this lifestyle but in life in general!! You two have been the only people I have met to date that have been interested in ME and not just getting close to him, and I can't thank you enough for that <3

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